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As an Pe I— you are an Explorer type, inescapably driven towards the proactive absorption of information. Your relationship to the world is mediated by an insatiable curiosity, a restless itch to peek into new things and experiment with a variety of experiences – whether they be deeply touching, entertaining, humorous or shocking. This proclivity towards immersive experiences can lead them to suck you in, loosening your grip on other matters until you find yourself in a different place or time without noticing how your investigative journey lead you there. But because of this, your mind is a mixture of hyper-attentive and inattentive at the same time. You exhibit an overwhelming indulgence towards ideas or things you presently find engaging, but just as much disregard for those things that lack engagement for you. This can cause problems with distraction and issues with keeping to a lifestyle that’s too predictable.
Your mind can be “a lot” to handle, and this can be both rewarding when it generates a seamless stream of inspirations and very exhausting when it leads to inner and outer chaos and disarray. In the worst cases, this can cause chronic troubles focusing on work or studies, a habit of disregarding protocols and getting into trouble due to impulsivity. At other times this can lead you to be incredibly prolific and creative, generating new material at a rapid, real-time rate. Depending on which form this takes, people may experience you as lively, animated and witty on the one hand, or childish, disruptive and imprudent on the other. But in either case, there is never a dull moment with you. While others may hold themselves back from reality, you plunge forward once you see a promising opportunity, and this can cause your presence to bring a contagious dynamism to those around you.
But this appetite for staying in motion, either literally by traveling or mentally by jumping across interests, can develop into a panicked or anxious need to do so. Problems may arise with staying satisfied with what you have or where you are now. The hunger for novelty develops into restlessness, stress and can be at odds with your own deeper goals, which may require years of temperance and gradual progress that quickly becomes suffocating and imprisoning. Interests and people may be picked up and dropped off quickly – breaking connections in the process. And in times of difficulty, you will be viscerally compelled to stay on the run by avoiding your own anxieties and fears – moving to the next thing as a way to distract or catch the fall – resulting in a personal hollowness accumulating in the background. But this may not always be acutely felt, and for the most part you are satisfied with the trade-offs of being a free-spirited, unbound trailblazer.
However, behind your voyaging, or perhaps because of it, will lie an inner yearning to find or make a “home.” In your career, your passions and in love, you’ll struggle for a place to settle – somewhere that evokes absolute belonging – even though you may find it difficult to stumble upon any place that checks all the boxes and which would anchor you to it. And while this is a frightening idea in some parts of consciousness, it is also the hidden agenda of your unconscious and is a source of idealistic fantasy. Your wanderings are motivated, at heart, to coming across that place that will satisfy all your criteria, give you the right answers, and tie you down happily forever.