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As an Pe II– you are an Explorer with conscious development of your Compass. You have an insatiable impulse towards new information, as you become enraptured by various interests and experiences that promise to unveil the mysteries of life. You become immersed in a sea of ideas, consumed by these interests while losing track of logistics, place and time along the way. However, although your appetite for new topics is broad, you are always focused on identifying the discrete, essential meanings in things and people. You wish to uncover what principles are core and lie at the foundations of reality. You’re driven to isolate what is “true” or “right” in the highest sense possible – both about individuals and existence itself. You are an avid explorer, but of questions of being, and to that end you plunge headlong into all available domains for answers, whether they be religious, academic or esoteric.
As you navigate these waters, your own nature come into sharper focus, thus turning your attention to your own existence. This leads to solitary self-reflection as a means of understanding your own inner workings. Pursuing questions about your personal identity and truth, what you like or dislike and what you really believe or disbelieve in, takes an enormous portion of your time. And your pursuit of these questions will manifest in that very same data-surfing that is native to you, taking you through disparate mentors, methodologies and information rabbit holes for answers. Your absorption in these rabbit holes can make you appear absentminded, lost and inaccessible to others. And while you never truly dissociate from the world, a fissure in communication inevitably develops between you and them which is proportional to how acutely your perspectives move away from the social common denominator. Over time, this idiosyncrasy will lead you to develop a specific set of philosophies, values, aesthetics which can be at odds not only with others, but also with what is practical in the world.
Your relationship to the world will be distressed and aggravated by your inner compass whenever work or responsibility suggests that you do something that goes against these very niche positions. You’re keenly aware of the social obligations and responsibilities that your environment puts in place towards you, and the rituals they would want you to live by. Yet you choose to resist conforming to those pressures and instead assert your own choices and live by the actions you feel are best. However, at work you may protest against procedures that encourage speaking inauthentic words and untruths, or which violate your private principles. At worse this can lead to paralysis and self-sabotage, where your compass causes you to fixate stubbornly in a position that feels true, but which is counterproductive and destructive. Yet, since you’re always in a state of fluid exploration, you ultimately question your preferences when they fail to be prescriptive to a positive and joyous life. Therefore, you’re never stuck anywhere for long, since your travels guide you in time out of that paralysis and into a new form of being. You are in a perpetual state of self-evolution, as part of your essence itself is change and you re-manifest yourself over time.
But this constant state of change, of mental and physical travel and reinvention, comes at the loss of security, certainty and “home.” You’ll have an unconscious aversion to settling down and laying roots, whether in your education, career or love life, feeling as though a vital and dynamic part of you would die. But behind all your wanderings and self-transformations hides an inner yearning to anchor down into an existence where you know just who you are, who you belong with and where. And while this is a frightening idea in some parts of consciousness, it is also the hidden agenda of your unconscious and is a source of idealistic fantasy. Your wanderings are motivated, at heart, to coming across that place that will satisfy all your criteria, give you the right answers, and tie you down happily forever.